I meant to update this before now, but such is life I guess. As I alluded to in my first post, I started this blog as a way to keep my friends, family and supporters updated on what is going on with me. This will be my way of opening my heart up to you. I hope you are encouraged to hear my passion to know what God is doing in me, around me and through me. I hope you hear my anxieties, fears and failures to know how to pray for me.
In the last several weeks, I am keenly aware that I have been blessed with some amazing friends in my life. Young & old. Men & women. Some have moved off to school recently. Some, like me, are venturing off into new callings for their lives. I count the blessings of my friends daily! ... I am staring to truly understand something I heard a while back (don't even know where I heard it) -- that in this stage of life [20somethings], your friends become your family. Although I have family, they are no longer the most important people in my life. They are no longer the most influential. I have a family of friends around me now that are nothing short of a blessing of God. And I praise Him for them daily!
I have left Joshua Cup. I am now fully dependent on God to provide supporters/money. I have never been more out of control of my life than I am right now. And it is scary. There are so many "what ifs" going through my mind. "What if the money doesn't come in?" "What if I heard God wrong and this is not the calling on my life?" Stepping out into this level of faith is never easy. [As Pastor John tells us - "If it was easy, anybody could live the victorious Christian life."] So I am scared. I am at times worried. And I've already had a few disappointments. But I am leaning on His promise that He will not call me into something and not provide. Matthew 6 tells us that God provides for even the lilies in the field which are here today and gone tomorrow so surely He will provide for His children that He loves.
I finally start with Mike on Monday. I also have some meetings with potential supporters on Monday afternoon/evening. ... I also plan on going to a new Sunday school class this weekend. ... So much transition is going on right now - and like every human - I like to cling to what is known. I, like you, am a creature of habit. So I am a little uneasy lately. I am out of my comfort zone. Which is the life He calls us all to. But I think it also explains why I am still up at 2:30 a.m.!
Good night y'all!
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Hey! Just was facebook stalking you and saw that you had this blog. I actually have been writing some on my blogspot too. I think you can get to it by clicking my name.
Very excited for this journey you are embarking on. We must catch up soon! ;)
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